Sharing God’s Love
with Everyone

Born in Minnesota in 1977, like anyone else I have had my trials and tribulations and even had time to encounter some success. From my research into the Bible and world events I became painfully aware on who’s side my country really stood with and made the decision to leave the USA and did just that on December 5th, 2014 having left for the Philippines.

On December 7th, 2014 I met my eventual wife Caesarina and we began our lives together. We struggled hard as she found work, and I started up a web development business, but we never gave up both on our dreams to own a home and cat family but also our goals for our professions.
Having married in October of 2023 and having managed to save enough to buy our first house, it was looking like we made it…. We were about to accomplish all we had worked so hard for, however sadly life had other plans in store for us and in January of 2024, she was diagnosed with White Matter Disease among other things.

I fought hard as she lost everything that made up who she was. Her memories, likes, dislikes, habits, and all else I was forced to watch fade away. As the weeks went on she lost her ability to speak, show emotions, use her right arm, then her right leg, then the ability to wash and feed herself until finally, the disease took everything from her until I was left with a woman who was basically in a comma at which point on April 24th of 2024 it took all she had left, life.

I can not tell you the depths of darkness I faced and the absolute loneliness of facing it alone with no friends or family for support and in a country completely foreign to me but by the grace of God, I made it.

Often I think people like to blame God for such travesties but I see it for what it is and for the vine of sin it came from and during those dark months, I had another battle to fight which was with myself and who I became having spent all these years living a sinful life and although spending decades in the study of God’s word, having never actually put it to practice.

I am now destroyed. I have no friends left, my family I am alienated from and my attachment to this world is zero. The money her and I saved I am in the process of giving away to help those I can and my one and only desire remaining while on this planet is to shed this horrible life I have lived and start a walk with Christ that I should have taken on a long time ago.

Instead of making this website private and strictly for my use, I have decided to leave it public in the hope that I can pass on a little bit of light that was passed on to me and who knows, maybe make a good friend or two.